スッキリ生きるには、とにかく点を打ってみる必要がある。
2020を振り返る。(A LOOK-BACK ON 2020)
1月
年末年始働通しで、2019年が続いてるかのような気分だった。いつものように飛行機を飛ばし、今日も1日無事に飛んでくれて良かったな〜という日を繰り返してた。
I had worked during the new year holidays. so i felt like 2019 is continuing. i repeated the day like seeing an airplane off as usual and feeling great the plane flew safety.
2月 春節なのに、飛行機ガラガラ。あっという間に、月末には飛行機が運休。
the season of chinese new year nevertheless airplanes were so empty. time just flew. flights were suspended.
3月 シンガポールに1週間の旅。帰ってきて1週間後、自宅待機生活がはじまる。
travel to singapore. one week after i came back to japan, standby at home started.
4月〜7月 たまに、仕事があったけど、ほとんど何も仕事がなかった。
i have some work sometimes, but almostly i standby at home.
この期間、会社からの命令での自宅待機だったのでお給料は支払われてたので一足早いベーシックインカムを体験してるみたいだった。
during this period, i had gotten my salary. so it was like experiencing the system of basic income.
8月〜再開。
basically, I was so bored.
early of this year, i had other some goal of this year ( trip, make a boyfriend , trip, trip, be a flight attendant etc ) but our situation was changed. my goal was changed too.
just be healthy and happiness. these became my goal of this year.
2020年新しくはじめたこと (new things that i started on 2020)
＊モーニング・ノート
I give me one some question "what makes today great?". and i answer 3 things.
doing the things make me confortable to start a day.
＊ヨガ
last year, i had walked 20,000 steps a day due to my job. but this year, i have to stay at home so long time. as sitting on a chair or lying on my bed for a long time are bad for my health, i wanted to do some excersice. and i strengthen my mental stability. therefore i started yoga.
＊料理
one of my goal of this year is "be healthy" and one of my original goal of this year was "going to trip some foreign countries".
so i wanted to feel a little bit of foreign atmosphere. so i tried to make some traditional food of foreign countries.
this book help me cook some dishes.
but recently i eat a cot of candies. maybe i need to more focus on the side of health than the side of feeling that i want to eat sweet.
＊ラジオ
at first, i live alone. if i dont keep in touch with my family or friends, i dont have a time of talking anything. but i want to talk something with someone. and i want to be a radio host ever since before. so i started.
自宅待機の期間が長く、一人の時間が多かった2020年。
アクセルを踏んで生きてる方が楽な私にとって、セーブしながら生きてきた2020年。
なんかね、正直点の打ちどころに迷いか生じて動けなかったな、と思っているんですよね。
でも、この間観終わった韓国ドラマ『スタートアップ（스티트업）』で、スタートアップ企業のCEOになった主人公が、一つ一つ責任持って決断をしていくんですよね、その過程で失敗したり、成功したり。（こんなに物語的に偶然的要素にフォーカスせずに、登場人物達が行動を選択する過程を描いてる作品なかなかないかも。）スティーブ・ジョブズも言ってたみたいに、点を打っていけば線になっていく。
来年は言い訳せずに、積極的に点を打って生きよう2021で生きていこう。
